Today is day three of our new fitness program but I am swapping out my end of the week rest day to tonight. I had my second counseling appointment today and I can already tell these days will be draining so I am allowing myself the flexibility to flip my schedule as needed.
I was talking to one of my best friends on my way home, asking her to hold me accountable to the homework my counselor gave me. The counselor and I talked a lot today about setting limits for myself, allowing myself the freedom to say no to things and to build in time for myself on a weekly basis. She also told me that much like I make time to make my workouts a priority, I need to make my mental health a priority as well. She gave me another assignment, one that is going to be difficult but one that I know is going to lead to some major break throughs in my life. She reminded me that sometimes it’s okay to be “selfish” and to allow myself space to rest, to feel, and to grow.
Reaching out and going to counseling is by far one of the hardest decisions I have ever made in my entire life. And just like Shaun T says on a regular basis in his programs “Embrace the hard. Growth comes from leaving your comfort zone.” Nothing about this part of my journey is easy. Letting my walls down and working through my baggage is hard.
But what I do know is that when you walk in obedience to where God calls you and have faith in His timing (and the fact that your best friend has been praying about this for YEARS), then He rewards that faith. I know He is going to make something beautiful out of my broken mess. I don’t know what that is yet, but I do know that this journey will be worth it when I get to that beautiful destination.
