Eating my soul

Grad school is eating my soul.

The end. I'll be back with a proper update eventually.

One of those days

Today was one of those days where my emotions spiraled out of control to the point where I broke down in tears because of it. I finally forced myself to take my birthday mix out of my cd player and put in my worship mix.

I just don't understand how my life can be so full and so blessed and yet I still have these moments where I feel so completely empty and lonely inside.

I'm worn out physically, mentally, and emotionally. Work and school are taking a huge toll on me. My friendships are draining me. All of my other relationships are all over the spectrum and I'm just drained.

I feel like I could go to sleep tonight and sleep for a month. Oh how I wish I could. There are no sleep in days looming and I'm getting to the point where I'm about to request a day off of work just so I can rest. I need a vacation. I was looking forward to all this me time this week with my parents gone and instead I'm so busy I don't have time for me time.

Is it winter break yet for both school and work???

My two cents

This song has been stuck in my head all weekend because Vince and I pretty much wore my birthday mix out listening to it so much in the car because it's the one cd we know we both like. I love this song in particular because it's really been speaking to me about my current boy predicament. I think I've listened to this song at least seven or eight times today because I just can't stop thinking about the chorus or the particular boy in my head and heart...

My Two Cents
Shane Piasecki

Throwing pennies in the wishing well
And I think to myself
If only you were here right now
I try to make believe
Pretend you're here with me
If things ain't what they seem
Well baby we'll work it out

So come back anytime you're ready
Cause I'm ready to be with you
I remember when you said
If it ain't broke don't fix it
If it ain't gone don't miss it
If you believe it's love then don't let them change your mind
Try to find a deeper reason
Time will change to another season
Oh, oh, oh and on and on the story goes

I go to the place where we used to meet
Do you ever go there too, do you ever think of me?
Oh we met on a hot summer day
And it started to rain
Water fell from the sky and down your face

So come back anytime you're ready
Cause I'm ready to be with you
I remember when you said
If it ain't broke don't fix it
If it ain't gone don't miss it
If you believe it's love then don't let them change your mind
Try to find a deeper reason
Time will change to another season
Oh, oh, oh and on and on the story goes
On and on the story goes

If it ain't broke don't fix it
If it ain't gone don't miss it
If you believe it's love then don't let them change your mind
Try to find a deeper reason
Time will change to another season
Oh, oh, oh and on and on the story goes
On and on the story goes

Bit the dust

So my laptop bit the dust this week. I've been so busy I haven't had time to update and now that my laptop is out of commission, so am I. I'm on my parents at the moment so as soon as I get a new one, I'll be back with a substantial update.

I'm so disappointed because I had found some great deals on flights to Denver and planned on booking my flight in the next week or so. I'm glad I haven't yet because now the money in my savings has to go towards a new computer so I'll have it for school.

I'm so frustrated but I know it'll all be okay. I have another financial aid refund coming in January so I'll just buy a ticket then. It'll all work out. One way or another, I'm going to Denver in March. Eight years is too long to go without seeing someone you used to be so close to.

On a more positive and exciting note, Vince is coming to visit on Friday and I haven't seen him since May so I'm psyched! It'll be fun to have the whole weekend together doing fun Cincinnati things and just hanging out.

Okay, I'm off to do homework and sleep. Hopefully I'll be back soon.