Purged

I should really be in bed since it's 1:45 in the morning and I have to get up at 9 to deal with UC's parking services in the morning for a parking pass but I decided on a whim (I seem to be good at this in the last 24 hours since I chose to cut my hair last night on a whim!) to purge my closet of everything that was too big.

I have an entire laundry basket of just clothes I yanked off of hangers. This doesn't include my other closet of t-shirts and shoes that I haven't gone through yet. After purging everything that is too big, I was left with about four pairs of dress pants, three pairs of capris, three pairs of jeans, and a few shirts. I'm good on pants for awhile since I just bought two new pairs tonight but my shirts are definitely going to have to be replenished because some of them are too nice to be wearing while I work at a preschool. I also had to purge all but one of my fall and winter sweaters which means I need some more of those too.

It made me sad to purge some of my clothes because I loved them but as I stared in the mirror and saw how some of those clothes swam on me now, I wondered how I ever let myself get to that size and weight. I looked through some pictures on myspace from college and I'm just amazed at the change in the last two years. Some of the weight started coming off as I started taking the meds for my PCOS, but most of it has come off since joining Fitworks.

Looking back over the last nine months, I am so glad I chose to make the leap of faith and join a gym. It was one of the hardest and scariest decisions of my life because I had always been intimidated by people who worked out and went to the gym but I love that I made that choice to become healthy and change my life. I have more energy now than I ever did. I actually enjoy running around with the kids I work with and my nieces and nephew, and all the kids I baby-sit for when before I would have been content to just let them play by themselves because I didn't have the energy to chase them. Now, they love when I go outside with them and join in their activities. I love life and being able to enjoy physical activities.

I was so tempted tonight to keep some of the clothes I loved the most but knew it would be too easy to fall back in that "comfort" zone and have those clothes to fall back onto. By tossing out everything that's too big, I'm telling myself that I will never let myself go back to that weight and instead, will keep looking to the future and the weight I know I still need to lose.

I did, however, keep the dress I wore at my college graduation and I tucked it in the back of the closet with all of my formal dresses that I keep for sentimental reasons. (Yes, I am a sap!) I just couldn't bring myself to part with it because it had been worn on such a big occasion but because it's so big, it's not something I'll be tempted to wear in public. :-P

The best part of purging my closet other than the new shopping spree I know I get to go on? All of my clothes I'm getting rid of will go to the Salvation Army. They come around every couple of months and collect items from families that don't need or want them and then donate them. This will be my third donation in the last year or so. Along with the clothes I'm also going through some kitchen stuff from school and donating it as well. I just have so much stuff that has been boxed up forever that there's no sense leaving it in boxes when I clearly haven't had a use for it in the last year and a half since I've been back at home. I'd rather it go to someone who needs it more than I do.

Alright, I'm off to bed. I need some rest if I'm going to fight with parking services in the morning. After that, it's off to the aquarium!! :-)

Girlified

Lately I find myself spending a little bit more time in front of the mirror. My makeup is actually being used (so much so that I may have to go to Bare Minerals soon for some more foundation!) and I've dug out my collection of high heeled shoes and started wearing them, even if I can't completely walk in them yet. (Heels and I have never gotten along!)

I just picked out my outfit for church tomorrow and I'm really excited about it. haha I have a jean skirt and a cute pink shirt picked out and two pairs of heels because I can't decide if black or brown heels would go better with the outfit. :-P

Anyway, enough about clothes and makeup. I baby-sat tonight and had a rough night with the youngest. I felt bad having to tell the parents how he acted and I almost made the mom cry as I was telling her about our struggles tonight. She kept apologizing and I told her not to apologize but I know her heart broke as I told her about our night because she says it's been more frequent lately.

After the kids went to bed I put my Netflix to good use and watched four and a half episodes of the show Jonas that's on the Disney channel. I was halfway through the fifth episode of season 1 when they got home so I'm about to finish watching it before I go to bed. I blame Vince for my new love of the Jonas Brothers.

Tomorrow evening Joe and I are headed down to the river for Riverfest and the WEBN fireworks, the traditional end of summer celebration here in Cincinnati. I haven't been since the first year I lived in Cincinnati...wait, no I went last summer with Megan and Brittany but we went to CCU so we weren't actually on the river. :-P It should be fun being back on the river for it though. It's the greatest fireworks show of the summer so I'm excited for it.

I also need to make Joe a cd before we go tomorrow. The last time he was home we got into a debate about our music tastes and I told him I was going to corrupt him to the dark side of country music so he asked for a cd with my favorite songs so I need to get on making that. He in return is making me a cd of dance/workout music because I was complaining that I needed new workout stuff so I'm excited to see what he comes up with. :-)

Alright, I'm off to finish Jonas and then head to bed. Night world!

Denver!

So...I haven't done an actual update since before my final. Let's see what's been going on.

Well, first of all school. I don't think I ever posted my midterm score. I bombed it. And by bombed I mean I got a D. That was a third of my grade so you can imagine my devestation over it. After that my studying kicked into overdrive and it must have paid off because I ended up getting a B in counseling theories and a 3.3 overall for the quarter!!! I was so proud of that grade, especially because my gpa has never been that high, not even during undergrad. It was in high school but college wasn't that great so I'm proud that my first quarter in a Master's program I got a 3.3!

There's been a lot of boy drama and if you're reading this on Bloop you know about it. Otherwise, I haven't been posting it. However, a lot of it has worked itself out thanks to my wonderful friend Tym and my wonderful small group leader Seth who listened to me and gave me some much needed Godly advice. I have such a feeling of peace about everything so it'll be okay. :-)

I didn't get the job at UC I interviewed for. My current job is working me full time through at least the beginning of November but I'm still job searching. I just applied at the preschool my best friend works at so I'm hoping they'll call me for an interview.

I'm getting a decent financial aid refund back for fall quarter so I think I'm going to take a portion of it and fly out to Denver for spring break to visit my cousin Terry Lee whom I haven't seen in years. I've never been to Denver and my mom was born and raised there before moving (she was a military brat as she puts it and moved around a lot growing up) so it would be cool to see where she comes from. Terry Lee moved out there a couple years ago for work so it'll be fun to go visit.

This weekend is going to be wonderful because it's a nice three day weekend. Tomorrow night I'm going back to my high school alma mater for a football game with Joe and his parents. Then Saturday I have to baby-sit. Sunday Joe and I are going down to the river for Riverfest and the fireworks so I'm excited for that. Then I plan on sleeping in on Monday. Woo!

Alright, I'm off. Have a great weekend!