Alive

I'm alive. I've just been....processing...some stuff. I have a lot on my mind but I just haven't been in the mood to write. I was all set to write an entry when I got home from campus tonight but as soon as I sat down on the couch, it felt like all my energy had been sucked out of me. Hopefully I'll be back this weekend with an update. We'll see.

Training

I went to the gym tonight for a much needed run. For whatever reason, my whole body has been tensed up the last couple of days and I honestly think it's from all the driving I've done in the last week. I'm contemplating with my next full paycheck going to get a massage to get all the knots out, but we'll see if I really shell out the money for it.

Anyway, back to my run. I ran last night after work and only got a mile in. I had a headache due to the heat and I got lightheaded because I hadn't really eaten much yesterday because I was so busy at work. Once I hit the one mile mark I decided it was time to get off the treadmill and go home to have dinner. I was going to go for another run after dinner but got a text from Diana asking if I wanted to meet her and John (who are technically on their honeymoon!) to hang out for a bit so I headed out to their hotel and we hung out until almost 11 instead.

I went to dinner with my friend Kelly tonight and then headed to the gym determined to get a mile and a half in. I actually succeeded, but not before feeling like I was going to die. I need to build my endurance up so I can run a mile straight without stopping but instead I did intervals. I would run for a tenth of a mile, and then walk for a tenth of mile and so on and so forth. I did this until I finally hit a mile and a half. At 1.40 on the treadmill, I was ready to collapse but I made myself finish strong until I hit the 1.50 mark. My goal by next week is two miles, so we'll see how it goes.

I also cut my mile time down to a 13 minute mile which is pretty exciting for me. I'm hoping by Christmas I'll have it down even further. My friend Denise is training for a half marathon for this coming September so we're going to start running together again. I do better running when I have someone beside me.

Alright, I'm going to go pass out from exhaustion now. My run knocked all the energy out of me so I should sleep good tonight. I didn't want to go to the gym, but I'm so glad I did. With each run I can feel myself getting stronger so I'm getting myself psyched up for all of this marathon training. Flying Pig 2011 half marathon here I come!

Back to reality

Well, it's back to reality tomorrow. As I spent four hours in the car driving home from Cleveland today (long story I'll get into later), I had too much time to think and during that four hours I kicked myself for my bad attitude on vacation. I spent so much time being upset about things out of my control that I didn't enjoy my vacation as much as I should have and now I regret the way I acted.

It's sad when Megan has more pictures of my nieces and nephew than I do because I couldn't handle being out in the sun early in the morning because it was too much on my skin. I wish I could spin time backwards one week so I could redo my vacation. But I can't so now I need to spend the summer making up for it and spending as much time with my family as possible. I'm so upset about it that I'm literally sitting here with tears in my eyes thinking about how much I missed out on because of my bad mood. I hate that I let myself get into this mood and then couldn't shake it for the rest of the week.

It just goes with the funk I've been in lately. I wish I could shake it and I can't and instead I'm just making myself miss out on things like this past week with my family and other events. I'm so glad I at least made myself make the four hour drive for Diana's wedding. I would have hated myself if I had missed it.

I know this entry makes no sense but I had to get some of it out so I can sleep. :-/

Europe!!

So Vince and I are planning a trip together for what will be my last spring break as a student. Originally, we were talking about an all inclusive resort in Mexico or a cruise. However, I found out that on a cruise, if you're not 21, you have to have a parent or a guardian with you so we had to quickly nix that idea.

Since I called to tell him that I would have to be his chaperone (something we both got a good laugh out of!), we started dreaming about different exotic vacation spots and we somehow got on the topic of going to Europe for spring break. At first it was a joke until I got off the phone and actually started doing some research.

For the same price that we would pay for an all inclusive resort in Mexico, we could spend a full week in Europe, visiting three different countries. The cost would cover our airfare, our hotels in all three countries, and our transportation between countries, along with a continental breakfast at each hotel every morning. The only thing we would have to pay for would be lunch or dinners and souvenirs.

What started as a joke quickly turned into seriousness. We're definitely considering Europe, something that is and always has been my dream vacation! If we find out that we can't afford Europe, we're going to have a backup plan. Each of us is going to come up with two backup locations just incase our Europe trip falls through. However, I think both of us want this badly enough that we're going to find a way to make it work!

Ok, time to get some rest. We're driving home tomorrow morning and it's a 16 hour drive so I need to get some sleep, which will be hard to do since all I keep doing is dreaming about Europe!

Adios!!

Megan and I are leaving for Florida tomorrow!!!! After counting down for so long, our vacation is FINALLY here!! We both have to work tomorrow and then we're having a quick dinner with Tym and Amy but after we'll be enroute to Florida!

I need this vacation desperately. There has been so much crap going on at work and then the stress of this quarter at school and I am just ready for a break.

Speaking of breaks...in December over the week between Christmas and New Year's when our preschool is closed, three of the girls from work and I are taking a cruise to the BAHAMAS!!! I am soooo freaking excited! I have never been on a cruise before and I don't get to spend much time with the girls from work because of school so I'm looking forward to a four day girls week and ringing in the new year in Florida.

My friend Nikki from school commented that I travel a lot and I laughed and told her that I know I do, because it's true. I love to travel. Then she told me that this is the time to do it, before we're all tied down with families and careers.

That thought had crossed my mind before when I was thinking about how I'm not in a relationship and not married and it's so true. I lament a lot about being single but honestly, think about how many opportunities I have. I can travel when I want to. I can pick up and move across the country if I wanted (something I am considering doing). I'm in school working on my Master's degree in something I love. I have all of these opportunities that I wouldn't be able to jump on if I had a husband and kids so maybe this time of being single isn't so bad after all.

Anyway, off my random tangent. The point of this is to say adios Ohio! My next entry will be from FLORIDA!! Woo hoo!!

Sweet summertime

Pictures from the last week here in Cincinnati! The weather is warming up and summer is in full swing! :-)